Feb 18 - Freeze


(8/Dust, 10/365)

I hate photography sometimes. It tells the truth. Sometimes it's a truth about happy, about love, about others. With a self-portrait project, it tells the truth about me.

I didn't expect that.

I don't know what I expected, actually. I've done enough head shots in the mirror that I figured I'd just get frustrated with myself. But I hadn't done the timer thing. Hadn't stood nervous in front of the lens, trying to figure out what to look like. Hadn't had my picture taken when I was alone with myself and my thoughts, when I was having a good day - or even a bad day.

As a photographer, I have to accept the quality of the photos I'm shooting here. I can't just keep shooting until I'm in a good mood, because I have two kids and a life to live. But as a person, it's hard to be so honest.

Pictures are meant to be seen. I don't shoot the things I want to keep private. But I'm an introvert, believe it or not. Words are one thing. Pictures - they're another.

These last few weeks have stop-start time for me. I am wavering between too many decisions, trying to figure out my priorities, trying to balance a constant-moving schedule, trying to regain my footing after Bredon's birth. It takes me longer than it takes some people, I think.

The song going through my head today is Switchfoot's Dare You to Move - "like today never happened before..."

It's the theme of my life lately.

Mercies new every morning. Grace for this honest, and Truth that doesn't end with me. A daily dare to live and move and have my being in Christ.

And every moment isn't like the frozen moments:

(Image © Informal Moments Photography)


Glynn said...

Beautiful photos, Kelly. I love the look of joy on the faces of Bredon and his mom in the third photo.

Cassandra Frear said...

Lovely. Light surrounds us. That's what it says to me.

Jessica said...

Love them all. And by the way, you may be surprised at how long it takes others of us to adjust, too. ;-)

Kathleen said...

The way you do white and light~amazing.

Inside My Shell said...

I just love this post! Your photos are gorgeous (as always) and your wise words touched me deeply.

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Anonymous said...

Oh Kelly, that last shot is just precious!!

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